DANGER DANGER

Rip Me Open.

I Want You To See How Fucked Up You've Made Me.

I've dealt with it now. For almost 3 longs months. I've lived without you. I've tried falling in love like. I claimed I was. I tried to force myself into it.

But I Can't Get Over You.

I don't know how to. My mind doesn't want to. My heart refuses to. I refuse to. Because I don't want it to end this way. Not now. Not ever.

I should hate you. I want to hate you.

But I Love You Too Much To Hate You.

I doubt you even remember me anymore. We don't talk. I just sit and look at your pictures. Read our emails and letters. I do that so much, the letters are now blurry and ruined. So I just rip them up and throw them away. No more than an hour later, I find myself digging them out frantically, hysterically, emotionally.

You Still Own My Heart.

Why won't you give it back?

I realized something though.

You broke me.

You did. You broke everything. My life. My heart. My soul.

I'm Numb Now.

Except when I think of you. When I see you. When I hear you.

I Bleed For You.

I cry for you.

Don't You Know I Would've Died For You?

In a way...I still am.

To Bleed Is To Know That You're Alive.

But My River Of Blood Won't Run Dry.

I know I've lost you for good.

But I Cling On To Our Memory.

If it wasn't for Amber, I'd be dead by now. She's the best friend I've got. She's been here with me through it all. But now...I think she's mad at me. I just hope she can forgive me. And for what?

You've Drove Me To The Brink Of Death.

Your Love Will Be The Death Of Me.

And now I'm gonna openly admit it. I think I am in love with someone. And I'm not the type to throw my love around. There's not a lot of it to give. Amber says I am. My mom says I am. I deny it.

Why?

Because ever since you hurt me, my favorite thing to do is push people away. I push away anyone and everyone that tries to get close to me. Because of you, part of my family doesn't want me anymore.

They disowned me.

Over your actions. And now...no one wants me anymore. Mom stays with me. Dad is there when it's good for him. Amber's there all the time. And I'm thankful for these people for staying. If they hadn't...

I'd Be Face Down In The Floor, Bled Dry.

Ever since you left...

I'm A Mess

And everything is spiraling down. My world is crashing. 15 years old, or not. Life can destroy you from the second you're born.

So Count It Down, Till It All Crashes To The Ground.

Because I'm going down.

And Goddamn It, You're Coming With Me.

It all falls down eventually.

No one expects it to when it does.

Leavemeamess,andleavemealone.

That's all I beg of you.

Razorblades Never Looked So Pretty.

Kat </3